depersonalisationandme

Blimey kids know how to get up your nose don’t they! Rudely awoken by a screaming one year old in the wee hours of this morning, frightened the Heebie Jeebie’s outta me! Screams peircing through the air like a madman with an axe of taking great hunks of flesh outta someone! left me lacking any way of getting back to sleep, so I am absolutely cream crackered!!

Today has been a better day, although I find myself list in my reflection looking in the mirror & seeing someone with a black expression looking back at you, it is like you are looking at a stranger. Do I really look like that person in there?? Is that really me??

Funny thing I thought I’d share, The world in my eyes looks like its painted there, I have no sense of realism at all…. It’s not like an abstract vomit of colours painting but rather like the paintings by Monet, detailed & beautiful but so obviously unreal.  To look at someone and see them as a colour pallet with smudgy edges is bizarre to say the least….  

I’ve got a throbbing headache this evening I imagine it from sheer tiredness over the last few days. At 6pm I would quite happily curl up under my duvet & feel no guilt in falling to sleep.

So i’ll sign off with a song, that i hear often but never really listened too… Its worth listening really hard to the lyrics…

Eddie Vedder- Society. From the Into the Wild Soundtrack, Magic stuff!http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=Cy6iwP9Ux3A