depersonalisationandme

You can indeed put a pair of muddy ugg boots through the washing machine and they come out fine and dry really quickly. I stared mesmerised during the 54 minute cycle watching my shoes being not spun but beaten & flipped around in the washing machine. I spend a lot of time watching my washing machine I imagine that’s why I get very little done round the rest of the house & my water bill is so high!

To sound really pitiful you could say like was similar to a pair of shoes in the washing machine. You go in muddy and worn out, hardly keep your head above water and are continuously chucked into the wall. Although the cycle last a lot longer than a 54 min quick wash.

You come out clean in the end though so it’s something to keep focused on!

Would also like to that the time before I forget all about it to bring up 2 very important issues.

1.       Why have I chosen to blog? – On recommendation of my counsellor to write down my thoughts, images, hallucinations etc… As I either tend to let it build up and become all encompassing or forget things that are important. This blog isn’t for anyone else it is for me, as I can’t lose my mental notes here.

2.       Being a victim? – I have never used the word victim in regards to myself, and never intend to. I am not a victim, nor do I pretend to be. I am however just a little bit messed up by events in my past. See the dictionary definition for victim below.

Victim (plural victims)

1. (original sense) A living creature which is slain and offered as human or animal sacrifice, usually in a religious rite; by extension, the transfigurated body and blood of Christ in the Eucharist.
2. Anyone who is physically harmed by another.
3. An aggrieved or disadvantaged party in a crime (e.g. swindle.)
4. A person who suffers any other injury, loss, or damage as a result of a voluntary undertaking.
5. An unfortunate person who suffers from a disaster or other adverse circumstance.
6. Narratology. A character who is conquered or manipulated by a villain.

 http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/victim

I’ll leave off today with another amazing track.

Keane - Spiralling

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=M-LZ7yH-JBM