depersonalisationandme

Its been a long break from blogging now, having to deal with the rush of Christmas and the anti-climax of the sodding new year! But luckily have a dissociative disorder means its all very quickly fading from my memory!

Finally back into routine after my first counselling session after the Xmas break. It was a hard and emotional session but opened up the small piece of sanity that still remains into a few other avenues to why i am like i am.

I have done some things recently i am not proud of and wish i could understand where that “dark side” of me comes from? I don’t want to believe i am a bad person but i am increasingly showing myself up-to be. Which is a shame considering how much i have changed my focus in 2009. I will make some big changes this year,but the chances are as i continue to push the people that care for me away that i will be very much alone when i make them….