depersonalisationandme

There is an advantage to have a dissociative disorder and i find that in spending so much time inside my mind rather than in “reality” I quite often come up with amazing ideas, inventions, plans, business’s, products, you name it!  That I’m sure if i had any sort of normal existence i would have a comfortable living by now.

Take a few days ago, I have come with a really interesting idea one to cause a giant social experiment, however i have absolutely no idea how on earth i would make that little idea a reality. That is where the negative part of this disorder is. I spend so little time in a reality state of mind that it is impossible for me to focus for more than a few minutes on things, which isn’t good for business at all.

It’s an increasingly frustrating problem. Here i am trying to get back to work, however there is no way i could sit in-front of a computer or a phone from 9-5, I need constant stimulation that is rapid changing to remain focused for more than a few minutes on something, otherwise i black out for hours on end and havent the foggiest whats gone on around me!

With the cutbacks and layoffs, i’m finding it hard to find just any job let alone one i would actually be able to work in….